Russell was silent for a moment, and then he replied honestly, "First Sharon and that man have too much information. I want to question and think too much. I can’t find a clue at the moment … it’s more like thinking than becoming speechless."
"My brain left a piece of white, maybe I can’t give any answer.
"I don’t want to be angry or hate … I can’t think of what I should do. I don’t know whether he saw me or Alice, so the man disappeared before my eyes …
"If the driver didn’t give me a definite answer, I would have suspected that I was hallucinating."
"That’s not an illusion," affirmed the green finch, "because I saw his love."
"… love?"
"My psionic power is also’ lethal love’, which gives me strength, and it gives me new strength after I have completed the demon awakening … some abilities that I may not be devious in my life."
The kingfisher replied, "If someone is pregnant with love that is too dangerous or too rich, I can break my heart and die. Their love can also be turned into poison to themselves."
"If the distance is not too far, I can also let lethal love invade other people’s dreams and bury blue or purple thorns.
"When they have" love "for others, or love for their ideal road, the blue or purple thorns will absorb this love, and their hearts will gradually sprout, which will give them courage and perseverance to practice this love, and will give them strong spiritual strength and will not retreat when encountering obstacles.
"As the resistance increases, their’ love’ will be strengthened by this courage, perseverance and determination, and then they will be fed back with greater strength.
"’lethal love’ tells me that this courage is enough to make a timid and mediocre person be able to bear torture without collapsing, but this power is not a price … it will also gradually drain their hearts and make their interest in the things they love gradually dry up. Eventually, this power will extract themselves, and then it will mean self-destruction."
"… as far as I can overdraw the psionic ability of others, it is to make people exhaust their own strength to’ persist’.
"and I clearly than from the man felt … ability can be launched directly.
"He is pregnant with the smell of’ purple thorns’, which is very strong, so strong that he seems to have been guided by me. This means that he has some kind of strong to almost paranoid love, and this love does not point to a real individual or an individual, but to something illusory, such as a career, a way, a dream …"
Here the kingfisher hesitated a little.
However, she decided to tell Russell that the information was misjudged. "And I felt the’ blue’ breath from him was almost invisible and much lighter than ordinary people … just like a child who has not yet reached puberty, he has his own heart.
"Whether it’s adolescence or adults, they always have friends who love their wives, husbands, parents, children or important friends … almost no one doesn’t love them, but the blue color in this person’s heart is so thin that it can hardly be seen.
"This means that he doesn’t love the exact individual, including himself-he doesn’t love himself either."
Luo Subai Delphinium means.
That is to say … that man doesn’t miss Alice or his own son Russell.
As Russell saw, he really cared about his life and death … and he really cared about his wife and children.
"Sheath" has a clear mind and will, and it has not been confused or manipulated.
So far, he has what he really wants to do and regrets not choosing the road and paying all the costs.
Even at the cost of Alice Russell and everyone who once believed.
Chapter 20 Crazy believers victims
A "scabbard" man is not a monster who doesn’t know how to love.
But knowing, contacting, understanding, getting the love that belongs to you, and then resolutely giving it up.
He is a victim.
But he sacrificed more than he had …
In other words, he relied on others’ "love" and "trust" to sacrifice something that did not belong to him but to others.
From this point of view, he belongs to the ideal road predator-like the general who expanded the territory in Xinjiang, he is not ignorant of the cruelty of war, nor is he unaware that this is an act of aggression … but he still strengthened his dream and destroyed others’ dreams after knowing all this.
"… turns out to be this type."
I don’t know if the kingfisher became a little lost when he saw Russell.
She stretched out her hand and held the back of his hand. "What’s the matter?
"Are you disappointed in that man?"
"Disappointed … but I really think differently."
Russell shook his head.
He was more inclined to be a "traveler" than a "predator" or a "scabbard". He left Alice to seek the truth. He was an answer to the question of the historical receiver … He should be closer to the lonely and lonely scholar than the sword-bearer who gives people a dangerous and sharp feeling.
It seems that only a man with such knowledge, wisdom, silence and profundity can start a lonely and romantic journey after learning the truth, and only a gentle woman like Alice can deserve her to give up her wealth and loneliness for more than 20 years.
Just like Strickland, the London stockbroker, who listened to the whisper of his heart, gave up his happy family and traveled alone, looking for life quality and soul freedom from that hard journey-Russell once thought he would be such a man.
But now it seems that this is not the case.
The man was just as silent …
But that silence is not because of wisdom, not because of understanding that everything is not as indifferent as a clear spring or a deep stream, but as intense as a fire-burning up one’s soul and life, sacrificing everything that one can, and dedicating the rest of one’s life to the path one pursues.
Not a traveler but a fanatic.
Not a wise man but a victim.
Russell didn’t know what he was pursuing, so he couldn’t judge whether his trip was right or wrong. He was inexplicably lost …
Because the pursuit of romantic and free life can explain his frenzied behavior, let’s abandon him to Alice and regard him as "sick" because Russell also knows that some souls have always been bound by law. If he suddenly becomes such a freak, then no one will blame him. It is just a natural disaster or misfortune for a soul to suddenly get sick.
But he gave up everything for utilitarian purposes and asked Alice to die with him-although he may not have asked so directly, it is also a kind of verbal and moral kidnapping to watch his wife support himself with "love" if not stopped.
So Russell has to see … what is worth doing?
Alice, who is also Sheath, asked Sheath what she got after sacrificing Alice.
If that answer doesn’t satisfy him-Russell doesn’t mind beating the other person up, or the other person’s enemy is to cut off and bury the ideal cruelly by himself.
He won’t be afraid to move because this result is "obtained at the expense of Alice" … rather, it’s just the opposite.
If that answer really satisfies Russell, he would rather destroy it because he doesn’t deserve the result.
"… is this feeling really anger?"
Russell low murmured
He bowed his head and stared at his hands.
He felt the qi and blood pouring into his brain, and his vision became bright as when he was slightly drunk. He felt that his fingertips were slightly numb and his breathing became short. He felt that his heart seemed to be tightly grasped, but he was more angry and beating … He felt that his palm was burning like holding hot iron.
So it is.
So far, he doesn’t know how many times he pretends to be angry, and there are some moments that make him look anxious and have anger in his words.
But this time he won’t feel throbbing and he won’t be eager to vent something.
But not lose your cool, and at the same time clearly feel something surging in your heart, which will make the lazy and lazy people get serious and make the honest people make a determined effort.
"Are you going to find the deer head?"
Kingfisher felt Russell’s anger.